its been long time i havent airing my thoughts... well most likely thoughts that are lonely...coz i feel lonely of missing my famly back home but then i feel helpless coz i cant go home till i get my goal or as I have planned, and hey this is just part of the challenge of choosing this path. For i know God has never left me nor forsake me, and its me who always athink this way and feel this way, i cant detach myself to the thought that time is such precious to me... i dont want to say to myself one day that I shouldnt have done these or i should have done that. I should chose this instead of deciding...it feels difficult when you are in doubt of your decision...but then before i close my eyes i just say I know there is a God up there who knows my every thoughts that no one can interpret no matter how they watch, look and observe me, no matter how much i open my mouth to details.

Pinapatulan ko kasi emotions ko, elln namn... emotions lang yan, sbi nga gamitin ang utak, thats why theres also wisdom, dont self destruct, dont poison urself to something unpleasant. (kausap ko lang sarili ko mga pre) pinagagalitan ko lang. ma-pride pa kc ako pa minsan lalo na pag wala nakaka halukay ube ng thoughts and feelings ko, namimiss ko na bessy ko. I hope she's ok.

Again, father God sorry for complaining, u know naman I always mention to you how much i admire u and praise u for u are wonderful to me. U always hear me whisper I love you.