Sometimes I get so tired
Sometimes I just want to go on
Things change so fast
Hazy things underway

Cant move from where I am
Dont know what to think
Cant explain how I feel
Dont know where to gaze my eyes

I want to keep my head leaped up
My gloomy feet...I just dont want to look down
All day I walk across so many people
But Where do I go from here?


I acknowledge Gods grace in all areas of my life...whether in good or bad I have thee.
What a wonderful God we have.

I miss you Happy Faith! ! !

With tears fallin in my eyes...

Sweet innocence...
Warm smile...
Soft laughter...
Tickling voice...
Joyous eyes...
I just want to hug you!

(Miss na miss ko na si Happy Faith! Ang ganda ng hipag ko anoh? Hehehehehe )

(During our boating trip at Dubai Creek Park- also seen in Dubai Movie)
I stop and think a while…walking through to the bunch of couples in the streets of Dubai, isn’t it fantastic how the wonders of being in-love can make their world go by everyday and the smiles that breaks the sacrifices of being here away from home. What a lovely sight to see different nationalities with different colors, cultures and beliefs stirring up love to each other. Flowers and so many flashy red stuffs hang around the stores and ladies walking with their hands holding flowers.

Here in Dubai many people don’t mind what bloodline does he/she truly comes from but what matters is Love…ooops don’t react yet we all have our reasons keeping up with your partners right now. But as for Filipinos I still talk to so many Kabayan they prefer their own.

As I reached home I thought of sharing my Chocolates from a friend who hands it to me shyly (he cant look at me while saying his words). I greeted everybody Happy Valentines Day I knock everyone’s door and let them choose which among the chocolates they want to have. It’s really a nice feeling seeing their faces getting a valentine gift. (imagine they’re all teasing me and hoping it would be valentines day everyday so I could spread around chocolates. The teasing what makes me think… is there a problem if I don’t like to date or have a boyfriend? – its just that I don’t see anyone I am interested and I don’t want to waste time with non-sense…its non sense if I don’t like him. Am I right?

I think what I’ve been through makes me a better person and I don’t hate them, I tend to hate myself for making mistakes but that where I grow and know that I have loved till my last thread. I breath and forget all the hurt. I miss them now? Not exactly…may it’s the act of having someone hold you and kiss you, I can lean my head onto his shoulders and hold my hand. Hug me so tight, look at my eyes and smile at me, tickles me, laugh so hard over my jokes, listens to what I have to say, tell me I’m wrong or misbehaving transparently. Tells me I can’t do this or that, I cant go there, I cant be with these people (oh I love it, knowing the person truly cares and is concern of my safety although sometimes its an argument)

But seriously, I don’t mind being single at my age or not having a partner or being active in procreations. For me It’s not the point at all, Feelings is not a toy, our body is not a Toy, I am created as a woman with a distinct purpose and role to act on. I don’t want to just hang around and have JUST somebody. I don’t want to end up crying. I am enjoying in what God has given me enough to laugh, smile or even cry with, enough to be able to go to work, chat with friends, think of my family’s welfare, simply making the best of what I have in life right now and in the state where I am. It’s not bad at all isn’t it?

I think at my age and being single with no attachment or commitment to anyone is not bad at all. What’s important is how we perceive things. There is a time for everything.

I’ve been praying to my best friend the Lord Jesus Christ, that he takes care of my future “Habibi”, that I hope he is smiling right now, that he’s in good health, he is responsible to himself and that goes with his family and friends and his spiritual growth. Oh and lord… I hope he is honest, sweet, God fearing and jolly. I hope I can make good conversations with him and we bring the bet in each other. That we work as a partners and friends as well. I hope we both glorify God as we pray for each other. (Other part of my prayer is just between me and WWJD) Faith works.

an Advancement...

I was hopping to some kapit bahay...i saw doc kenjis psot with his parents pictures in it..I remember my folks too...and so I wanna dedicate this song for them as I imagine mine will be like that too. Here it goes...

I wanna make you smile whenever you’re sad
Carry you around when your arthritis is bad
All I wanna do is grow old with you
I’ll get your medicine when your tummy aches
Build you a fire if the furnace breaks
Oh it could be so nice, growing old with you
I’ll miss you
I’ll kiss you
Give you my coat when you are cold
I’ll need youI’ll feed you
Even let ya hold the remote control
So let me do the dishes in our kitchen sink
Put you to bed if you’ve had too much to drink
I could be the man who grows old with you
I wanna grow old with you
(courtesy of The Wedding Singer Movie)

Kissing Language (yup, it's a language) if a kiss is the Language of Love, then we have a lot to talk about it...methods of Love....
kiss on the ear--------------------"i'm horny"
kiss on the cheek-----------------"we're friends"
kiss on the hand------------------"i adore you"
kiss on the neck-------------------"we belong together"
kiss on the shoulder--------------"i want you now"
kiss on the lips---------------------"i love you" or "i want you"
holding hands-----------------------"we can learn to love each other"
a wink---------------------------------"Let's get it on"
slap on the butt---------------------"thats mine"
playing with the ear----------------"i can't live without you"
holding on tight---------------------"don't let go"
looking into each other's eyes---"let's get romantic"
playing with hair on head---------------"tell me you love me"
arms around the waist -----------"i love you too much to let go"
laughing while kissing-----------"i am completley comfortable w/you"

advice***if you're kissing someone, close your eyes. it's not nice to stare...

But as for you guys reading this it depends on you how you display your affection to somebody..coz others may have different way of showing it.
Well I really think and imagine the kiss on the forehead...but not like lola thing but I think its sweet and makes me feel really secure. But its realy nice if you kiss in someways your loved ones, the more the better plus saying I Love You

How bout you? can u relate to some of the ways mentioned above?